Monday, January 09, 2006

Dearest,

I'm sorry it's been so long since I've written. I'm trying to save money, so I cancelled my internet access at home. I can use the computers at work or at my mom's house, but it makes writing to you more difficult.

I have been busy since school ended. I've applied to several editing jobs - one local, a few in NYC and one in northern NJ. It's frustrating, since I don't have any occupational experience in this area. I think I wrote a very good cover letter and I do have good recommendations, so I am hoping that if I keep plugging away, eventually something will come through.

Please don't think that since I haven't been writing I haven't been thinking of you. I think of you every day. Most of the time I believe I will find you. I don't know what I would do if I couldn't believe that; I think it would destroy me. I have so much more faith in myself now than I used to. People say that you have to love yourself before you can be loved by somebody else. I'm not sure if that's true, but I think I'm on my way to that.

I don't feel as apart from people as I used to. It's strange, though, feeling the things I do and being so lonely at the same time. William is good company, but he's only a cat after all. I try to keep busy. I work, I write, I live. That's all we can do, right?

I guess I didn't really have much to say. I just wanted to let you know that I'm here, and that you're in my thoughts.

I am, as ever,
yours.